In Russell Moore's book, Adopted for Life, he makes the following statement: "God often doesn't explain his providence to us, past or future. He asks us to trust him, to endure, and to know in the words of the old gospel song, that we'll 'understand it better by and by.' Sometimes, though, he grants us a glimpse in the middle of it all of how he's silently working toward something joyous."
Yesterday was one of those days...the days that we endure. Everyone has told us that it would be hard. But yesterday was one of those days where it just didnt make sense. I know that adopting this child is the Lord's will. So I just don't understand why it is so complicated. Why can't this process just be easy? Why can't things fall into place?
I dont understand. I dont get it. But my heart tells me to trust...to endure...to fight for this child. We cannot quit. No matter how discouraged I feel because I cannot see a light at the end of all of this paperwork, the Lord has promised this child, chosen this child. Our God never fails.
Today I choose to trust, to endure. And I pray that someday soon we will see a glimpse of the joy that is to come.
An old friend of mine was having a really hard time getting things in place to go to Uganda several years ago, and mentioned to her friend that maybe this meant she wasn't supposed to go. After all, doesn't God open doors when he wants us to do things?
ReplyDeleteHer friend replied, very bluntly, "So, you think God's will for you is whatever is easiest?"
Yeah, God opens doors and makes things smooth sometimes. But sometimes, before he gives us something deep and wonderful and life-changing, he makes us fight for it. After all, if we haven't striven with all we are for something until we feel ready to quit, how do we really know how much we want it?
So keep fighting. You two are more than capable of this. Keep filling out forms until you can't see straight. Call people back until you annoy them into acting. Go to their offices. Fill out more forms, and jump through as many hoops as the devil can throw your way until that baby is finally home.
I love you both, and I'm so excited for you! - Adam.
My God Never Fails!!! Keep the faith!! This is a mild trial in the process that will bring God Glory once its over.I am praying for you all and our little one that God has for you both.
ReplyDeleteRemember the story of Lazarus? It wasn't till after he was dead for 3 days did Jesus call him back to life. And when he did there were many witnesses and many believed in Him because of this miracle. Often the waiting and trials are allowing God to gather many to witness what he is about to do. And many WILL believe in Him because of YOUR faithfulness. Having been were you are I can testify that God is good and he remains faithful even when it doesn't feel like it. Press into Him and into each other. Let people lift you up. The painful part of adoption is that there isn't always an update. There isn't a belly to measure or weeks to count down. It is complete and utter dependence on the Lord for direction in every step. Praying for you both as you follow in obedience the journey God has set before you.
ReplyDeleteHere I am re-doing all of my adoption paperwork :( enduring is hard
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